Livelife

I slept at 12am half asleep already by 11 on the desk woke up at 4am energized myself with exercises I prayed and not knowing what to stduy and being half asleep I went to sleep again at 6am until 7:15 for breakfast. Classes ended by 1pm today. I decided to meet my school friend whilst buying myself perfume. It was nice it felt like a long time I saw her and it was.  I had a bad hair and skin day today. I am already very conscious about my acne and today it seemed all the more worse altogether. I felt depressed throughout the day. Came home I made some tea for my father we had jackfruit I did some work and im totally tired now. All I want to do rn is scroll through instagram and do nothing.  That's all for today.. Goodnight 

The night before I decided to exercise immediately after waking up at 4 I kept my alarm it didnt ring... I heard the door lock when gloriya opened it and I woke up it was 4:04am I exercised I wanted to go back to sleep but I didnt because juns 4wins was something i was really committed to. I brushed my teeth face wash etc. I had my alone time for almost 45minutes where I read the bible. After 5:30am I fell asleep while sitting i woke myself up and studied for awhile. At 6:45 I attended chapel.  College was boring as usual I did not have a good mood I kept myself calm. During the break I went out with gloriya to get some fresh air she had some fever so she wasnt really in the mood of walking. But still she accompanied me to the ground where I embraced the beauty of nature.  I came back but still I wasn't happy. Anyways I concentrated in class I tried to lol. It was actually an overall good day for me. Im learning new things each day.  The one thing im not satisfied with is...

 Problem: Not being socially aware of societal cases issues.  Today as I was writing my essay on justice delayed is justice denied I noticed that my friends had included cases in them except for me. Im not comparing but I have noticed that others are more aware of the cases going on except for me. It kind of made me feel stupid but ik realization is the first step to learning them.  The problem I now face is how am I supposed to do this.. how must I deepen my gk and have more case knowledge. What I worry about is how will I make time for this.  The step to this is to watch news and be aware of what's going on. 15minutes daily for this would be beneficial for me.  The issue regarding time is to just ignore my laziness and get to it at times when I dont feel like studying or doing anything. The free time in classes breaks I can easily use that time to learn about this. 

 Good evening ( 11:21pm) Woke up at 7:40 to the scream of my mom because we were late to go to church .i slept after 4:40 am . Had a bath did my hair makeup nd went to church saw 3 of my friends.. my relative dropped me home from church . From 10:33 to 11:45 i was in church hangover break I fell asleep until 2:20 pm got up and made a plan more like a to do list. So first for 45 minutes I cleaned, 15minutes editing, 2 hours of study. From 7-9 i was busy had a funeral to attend, my cousin was going through a hard time so I spent some minutes with him and yeah then I studied bought shawarma. Rn im just chilling. Well I haven't reached anywhere with my studies...  But im proud of myself so much today. I pushed myself to do things a lil. 

 Woke up after 11:10 am today. Came home yesterday from college was really tired slept after 11pm. I woke up did my skincare and helped my mom in the kitchen. I spend my time in the word and after that I decided to study. I studied for 40minutes on the bed so I fell asleep when it was almost 4pm woke up after 8:30pm. After that had dinner and family prayer. I tried to study for 20minutes . But i didnt study anything those 20minutes.. I spent a lot of time on instagram today. Its been more than a month since I had deleted instagram I downloaded it yesterday. 5minutes before I deleted it again.  Overall today was not a productive day for me. Because of me.  Its been 10 days since I have last  written on my blog because of my exams. I want to get back to this again..  Uk today what I am learning is to learn to forget what is behind what happened in the past and to think of Godly things such as mediating in the commandments.  Im learning to forgive myself for t...

 Problem: getting distracted while studying Every person gets distracted some get less and some are overcome by distractions . Students especially fall for the trap of distractions.  Right now the distractions that students face is instagram youtube shorts movies webnovels etc and if the person likes someone probably will be thinking about them which is another distraction.  The causes of distraction is 1. Not having proper study plan they do not take the time to intentionally plan out their studies in respect of time. For example have a grasp idea of the topics to be learned and estimate how many you can finish in this time frame. 2. Not having enough desire to complete what you stared. This desire is of having a goal so important to you that you would be willing to give up your temporary needs of satisfaction. 3. Suppose you are studying and seeing the huge amount of work to get completed you get worried and hopeless so you leave the work that you started because you th...

 14 Jan 2026  I studied until 1:50am yesterday . Woke up after 7:30am had breakfast bible study for an hour. Started studying until 12 got bored went to talk with gloria until 12:45 .  Probelm : Not being able to tackle my exams well.  Soo where do I start. Lately i have been getting really bad grades for my internals and my model exam probably failed in the modals. Why cause I did not study. Why because I did not want to because it was hard because I did not like sitting for hours on stduying. Because it was easier to waste your time or sleep. How is that life going until now very bad. It's depressing. I prioritized my temporary feelings just to end up be hopeless and depressed every day. I stopped doing juns 4 wins too in the excuse of studying. Doing those 4 wins gave me happiness and made me respect myself I did not feel like I am rn. Today I did pray go outside so the last thing would be to spend 15min editing. Anyways the problem is im not doing well in my exam...

 13 Jan 2026 Woke up at 7:30am today slept after 12:30 ig. I was really done and just went to sleep. Had breakfast my phone sound settings were off so didnt hear when gloriya called me at 7:15 am to have breakfast so ended up having breakfast alone today.  From 7:45 to 8:45 i tried to spent time in the word but i felt too unworthy and did not spent much quality time.. After 9am i made a goal of learning 1 chapter from each 2 subjects and present tense of English. I started studying after 9:10am i studied until 12:37 using the pomodoro technique it actually is useful for those who get easily distracted. I went outside with megha for her courrier. After lunch we 3 went to the canteen. It was over 1:30 then and when I sat to study it was too hot . I felt like laying down in the fan but I didnt want to be unproductive so I took a bath. It was 2:30pm i went to sleep until 6pm. Was still in bed until 6:30 i sat down to study when it was 6:57 pm went to eat dinner.  Before my co...

 11/1/26  Had a great time at the church perunnal. Me and gloriya decided at 8:30pm to get ready and go for it we had to beg the sister to let us go and she was adamant at first but let us go.  Essay  Problem: being distracted while im stduying  When i sit to study i find my mind wandering thinking of things that are not related to my studies. This makes learning even a small topic take a lot of time because of my lack of concentration so I go to sleep thinking that my focus will be back in the morning but the same thing repeats.  I personally believe that its because im not studying in an interesting way or that im not engaging with the material well enough. I don't break down my tasks It's just stduy constitution, economics etc  I read on reddit that for you to make studying enjoyable you must take a day off take 300₹ wake up early go out take a bus crowded one get off after 6-7 stops. Walk around smile at the people you see observe everyone take a b...

 10 jan 2026 Saturday  Had our college church feast today. It was alright we reached there at 6:30pm and came back after 10pm. We had appam and beef curry.  I dressed up pretty with my yellow dress and makeup. I bought some 3 earrings and a clip. The collections were really good.  I studied for an hour. Slept for an hour or 2 during the day. Overall day was 5/10. 

 You know today was that kind of day where I really did not want to wake up. I had my tort exam today. I was at hand dissapo8nted that i had not waken up at 1:30am to study and that i did not study anything. I really wanted to die. But i had to get up life moves on even if i haven't studied or slept for so and so hours I still need to put my face out there.  I read through my lecture notes i was gaining some confidence beacsue I could easily connect through those narrations and understand the concepts. I went to write the exam the question paper was on the topic i had skipped yesterday cause it felt too long and complicated.  Today's class time was really fun it brought back my childhood class time where we giggled and enjoyed being in that class. Political science class was where gloriya had a lot of doubts and that made it fun. Economics we were complaining to the teacher how they put classes in between our study leaves. In constitution class pur class tutor talked abou...

 8 jan 2025 Today i got up at 6:50 am. Read through some of my own notes and wrote the exam. I was really unsatisfied. I had not prepared well.  After the exam i went to library to read the newspaper and legal cases updates given in the group for 15minutes. After college me and my friend ran till our hostel kept our bags and then we walked. Came back to hostel at 4:30 i talked to my friend until 5:15 because i was feeling as if something was missing like I really wanted to do something crazy uk like running i couldnt run a lot today as my friend was busy talking with her bf.  After having a bath it was 5:45 i tried to sleep for an hour until 7pm but I couldn't. Had chapati and egg curry for dinner. Went to the study hall. Sat there for 40minutes having no clue on how to study.  Went for prayer and did my skincare. Wrote my blog all that is left is to study for 5hours and 15minutes of editing.   

 7 jan 2025  I woke up at 4:36 today really proud of myself! I spent time in the word for almost 30 minutes. It was really cold atleast for me so I put on my hoodie but my hands were still freezing. The night before nothing was getting into my head when I was studying economics as i found my mind wandering. So I decided to sleep and study early morning. After i went to sleep my roomate did the same we all realized that it was too late to get anything inside our head 😂.  No knowledge was still getting uploaded to me in the morning. I did not study any new things only revised some of the things I had learned before and I wrote the exam. It was alright all my friends were writing so many pages. Ohh another thing was that i forgot to keep my phone back it was still in my pocket. I was panicking my tote bag was across the end of the floor and I didn't want to embarrass myself for doing so. I prayed and God listened to me luckily nothing happened I was scared someone would cal...

 6 jan 2026 I woke up exactly at 6:11am... and slept when it was 1:15am. I did my skincare read my bible had breakfast started studying for any hour and a half. Went to college wrote my exam from 10 to 1 pm. Had lunch from outside today. Had student biriyani.  The exam was tough to be honest. I forgot the things that I had learned the day before. And also what I learned from the 1st chapter months back. I realized that political science is easily forgotten and needs to be revised continuesaly through active recall every 2 weeks.  After having lunch I went to the library and Went back to class on the way I saw him and he looked away. Brother that made me kinda hurt cause now I was wondering if he actually even liked me. I was disappointed tbh and also flabbergasted.  Something wasnt right that day but I had to follow my timetable. I came back, wanted to go out to that stream to feel free but I knew that would be a waste of my time as my friends were still having Snack...

 Sunday  I woke up at around 7:45pm. I got ready to go to church. Church was until 10:10am and then we had rice gruel which was good. Later my dad picked me up along with my sister and we dropped her to the railway station. I helped her to the station with her bags. On the way to the railway station my dad gave my sister 500 to buy herself something from Ann's dad explicitly told me no donuts knowing how much i loved having donuts from there lol. He assumed I would go along with her but I wasnt planning to neither was I going to ask dad about the donut. Anyways I had to get out of the car to buy my dad his bp medicines. And then also a water bottle. My sister had bought 2 donuts I asked her if it was for me she said no to which I said how could you  bro she then bought me a glazed donut with dad's money obviously. It was really good. I reached home I changed to my house clothes had the donut shared it with my brother. Then I watched some youtube videos motivational. I cha...

 Problem: Seeking The kingdom Of God consistently everyday.  The solution in one answer is always be humble. Do not think of yourself to be wise when you are in a position of power rather be even more humbler and seek the kingdom of God.  Seeking the kingdom of God gives you more clarity on what you ought to do rather than feeling overwhelmed.  Why does that happen?  At other times I am pretty much clueless without God being my purpose and it is true. I already gave up my life my pleasures when I understood what christ had done for me on the cross.  "Deny yourself take up yourself and follow me"  This might be the toughest part to keep consistently everyday. That's when your physical self tries to pull you as far as possible from the things God has for you and that is only fulfillable when you start denying yourself.  This is the basis of who i am and the more I get away from it and follow the world’s path the more I lose my true self. 

 Problem: Not working hard  Meaning When i talk about working hard I mean it in every aspect of our life. In our house, I can be hardworking by sweeping the house, cleaning the kitchen and rooms, making something. I can be hardworking by getting things done outside buying the necessary items i need, take the time to explore the places . Being hardworking in my studies by studying at times I don't want to. Working hard when I could spend time on my phone or sleeping. Working hard taking efforts in friendships and family. Working hard by spending time in the word and grasping knowledge about the Lord.  Reality In reality, I spent hours wasting time on sleeping, daydreaming, or meditating( just sitting there simply worrying about things ). Yes i hate it I know what I am doing is not right but that guilt makes me do it even more. The guilt of not succeeding my expectations i put on myself to always be productive. I spent hours talking to people, watching youtube shorts and wo...

 January 1  Isabella woke up at 4am. She washed her face and put on her moisturizer. She then began exercising her body to make herself feel awake and strong. She sat down to read the bible and learn about God. Next she practiced her editing skills she was really good at cinematic editing and story telling.  By 5:30am she began her study. Isabella focused on learning and not just memorizing things. She opened her political science notes and read them she then actively recalled the information by pretending to teach it to a 10 year old child. Isabella focused more on understanding each topic rather than trying to consume all of ot at once. She knew that real success was through effort and actual learning and not about mugging things up. She put a deadline of finishing 1 chapter of political science and 1 chapter of economics. After 4 hours of studying she then went to help her mom prepare lunch and also help in cleaning.  After her work she laid down closed her eyes a...