9/1/26

 You know today was that kind of day where I really did not want to wake up. I had my tort exam today. I was at hand dissapo8nted that i had not waken up at 1:30am to study and that i did not study anything. I really wanted to die. But i had to get up life moves on even if i haven't studied or slept for so and so hours I still need to put my face out there. 

I read through my lecture notes i was gaining some confidence beacsue I could easily connect through those narrations and understand the concepts. I went to write the exam the question paper was on the topic i had skipped yesterday cause it felt too long and complicated. 

Today's class time was really fun it brought back my childhood class time where we giggled and enjoyed being in that class.

Political science class was where gloriya had a lot of doubts and that made it fun. Economics we were complaining to the teacher how they put classes in between our study leaves. In constitution class pur class tutor talked about her college days and how hard it was for them to get through and pass as they wrote their 1st sem exams when they were writing their 4th sem. And now exams are more timely but still not planned well as they are trying to finish a sem in almost 2 months instead of 6. 

Lunch was alright i had little rice sambhar peas , and egg. After coming back from college. I was talking to my friend gloriya and i asked her what my problem was. She told me that im focused on something else instead of my studies and that is true caus eu rarely think about my studies. Our conversation for more than an hour (4pm -5:10) made me realize how easy i had my life in terms of money. I did not have to worry about my fees being paid on time, about the food we ate, about anything at all. I always got what I asked her and that's not the same for everyone. It made me realize that I wasn't appreciating my dad enough and I had to focus on cs and my college and make him proud. 

Rn i just want to spend an hour everyday first with the Lord. Spend the rest of the hours completing and studying my portions and also develop my editing skills while also having physical work. I want to be a cs and a lawyer if it's God's will ❤️. I really want to be that intelligent wise woman. 

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