6/1/26

 6 jan 2026

I woke up exactly at 6:11am... and slept when it was 1:15am. I did my skincare read my bible had breakfast started studying for any hour and a half. Went to college wrote my exam from 10 to 1 pm. Had lunch from outside today. Had student biriyani. 

The exam was tough to be honest. I forgot the things that I had learned the day before. And also what I learned from the 1st chapter months back. I realized that political science is easily forgotten and needs to be revised continuesaly through active recall every 2 weeks. 

After having lunch I went to the library and Went back to class on the way I saw him and he looked away. Brother that made me kinda hurt cause now I was wondering if he actually even liked me. I was disappointed tbh and also flabbergasted. 

Something wasnt right that day but I had to follow my timetable. I came back, wanted to go out to that stream to feel free but I knew that would be a waste of my time as my friends were still having Snacks. So I stuck to the plan had a bath, excercised for 15minutes basically I was walking. While i was walking I reflected on myself. I was observing myself of the fact of how much o let my mood and actions be dictated by other people. I already knew that but I was even more conscious now. What I learned from this is to always stick to my plan no matter what someone said or did. My system should not fail my discipline should be consistent.

I slept until 5:50. I was not able to fall asleep  but I think i managed 10minutes of sleep. From 6pm to 7pm I was with my books and with my timer on. I studied two small sub topics. No I was not efficient. I really did not want to study. My mood was still not right. While in dinner I talked to my friend gloria and somehow I felt so much more relieved. I talked to her about God about how he became a part of my childhood and also about my childhood school time. I also listened to her. It was honestly nice. 

What i am learning today is have a learning mindset during every class it makes everything more interesting adopt the same in your day life as well. Talking to a friend when you have a bad day makes you feel relieved. 

What I can do better tomorrow is to wake up at 6am and use my study time where i actually learn something not just to put away with my to do list! 

Thank you father for my friends, for this college, for this weather, for my parents, for my lovely siblings, for my grandparents, for giving me a roof over my head, for waking me up today.