29/12/25

 Problem: feeling Stupid 

Feeling stupid it's such a constant feeling for me except when I am with my college friends. But that reveals that Im not being challenged enough. If any competent person comes before me I feel stupid.  

Well why are some people so naturally street smart . They have strong opinions and debates . They have interesting Knowledgeable conversations where they contribute in a lot. 

Me ,my siblings and my father were sitting at the table together... They were talking about politics, cars, management, history, world war 2 etc. I was quite the entire time. I remembered a verse from the bible which said the fool has nothing to say when smthg imp is spoken smthg of that sort. Yes it did hit me but it doesn't mean that I have to continue being a fool. I can always acquire knowledge. Today I understood that to be among any successful people i need to be updated on things around me even random Facts. 

Second would be to voice my opinions. No opinion is stupid or not valuable. I always thought that my opinions or words never had a place or value and that played a huge role in me being quite. But when I need someone to listen to me then I need to believe first that my opinion is valuable. And talk with Power. 

The third point would be to change my interests. My interests at the moment is mostly Philosophy, fiction, Beauty etc. The good thing about this is i can talk to my friends about these things. Maybe even help me write or compose my essays etc. The disadvantage of this is that i will not be aware of what's happening in the world. And also not be able to talk with Knowledgeable people who want to talk more about things that are happening in the world. 

What I can do rn is to watch videos that are informative at least for 15min per day. That will increase my gk drastically.

What i am afraid of is whether me doing this for 15min would take away my time from studying especially when I am at college. But if it bothers me that I am using this time for random study instead of book study. Then I should wake up early to do this. Make it my priority to learn about new things every single day and then I will have something to speak at the table. 

The conclusion

Feeling stupid is the best way you can learn to be better. There is never a reason to be embarrassed for being stupid . No one knows everything . Knowing where you are stupid at make you self aware about the thing that you should change about yourself. 


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