18/12/25

 I'm writing this after almost 3 days and I will try my best to retrieve what happened that day 

I woke up late after 7 so couldnt go for church. I decided not to wear lipstick one I was lazy to do makeup everyday 2. Liquid lipsticks ardently really good for my dry lips. 

When I went to college my benchmate shivu asked me why I didnt wear my lipstick if I had forgotten to wear it. I told her my reason 

I was really quite that day during lunch megha asked me why I was so quite I said I am a quite person she told me that not with us but I told her kind of in angry tone that I can't always be energetic can I. My tone was not right but im tired of people telling me how I should be they dont let me be myself at times. I dont like talking all the time sometimes I just wanna think and be quite its not like I have anything imp to talk about. 

My mood was really bad after that maybe because of the way I had talked idk. Before going to the hotel for lunch paid 1000 for my exam fee in the office. I dont really talk or open with people that im not comfortable or strangers with. But my seniors they seemed to be really close with the guy in the office who was laying down on the table and they were trying to wake him up lol. 

Another classmate of mine asked why I had acne and why my skin was glowing so much I said it was genetics my dad has the same thing

I was always insecure about how I looked in my past. I was tired of being so. I felt kinda bad during that day too but I assured myself saying that I was still beautiful to me even if I dont seem to anyone else and God still loves me no matter how I look like. 

After this whole bad day after college it was really sunny I didnt even feel like going outside. I studied until 4:30pm I thought I wouldn't go outside but my roommate Gloria kept asking so we did I called nayana. On the way a guy was talking to gloria and then he actioned me by using my two ponies as the actions to call me lol. He asked me if I knew a girl from the hostel he had to give something to her. We took it and said we would give it to her. 

Me and nayana and gloria spent almost an hour in the valley near the ground. Theres a way to go to the valley where we have to jump I was really scared of jumping but I still did it with my friend. We went inside the water and took a lot of videos and photos . This really made me happy and made my day better. After I had my usual routine of taking a bath and studying. Studied until 11pm and watched the suits drama until 12 pm and went to sleep 

Things I learned

Go for a walk or go outside when you feel like you had a bad day or mood. 

Remember to write this blog no matter how busy I am.

You can always tell your opinion or explanation in a calm way not in an angry tone. 

What others say about you do not define you. What you think about yourself does. Always say things that are beautiful about you and remind yourself of that. 


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