15 dec 2025

My alarm rang at 4am in the morning. I told myself not to get up . I was supposed to sleep at 11pm yesterday but ended up sleeping half an hour early. I was disappointed that I did not keep that promise my perfectionist self so did not let me wake up at 4am. My grandmother called to me and told me to wake up after frequent reminders I finally woke up by 5am... I brushed and sat there on my chair not knowing how it was already getting 5:46am. I was leaving my grandparents place to my hostel. My grandfather dropped me to the bus stop. It was cold and the view was good. I saw some students from bassalious college they usually got of at Hamilton bus stand. One of the students was sleeping I woke her up and told her it had reached Hamilton stop when I saw other students of that same college getting off. She first seemed hesitant looked out of the window and then looked in front of her seats to see if her classmates left. She then hurried off the bus. When I sat down on the seat I realized I was mistaken it was not the Hamilton bus stop, it was the next stop not this one. I felt really bad and regretted getting into someone else's bussiness even though it was out of good intention. 

I reached my hostel. I like going to the library in the morning. I hurried to my room to do my makeup and hair and left for college an hour early. I sat in the library room and read some cases. 

As I took each step to my classroom and while seating in class I kept on wondering what the cases were about and its name. My benchmate told me that I suddenly became serious. As if As reading through my notes she kept talking to me. I thought to myself that I should not just stick to my books communication is also very essential for a healthy life. I closed my books and talked to her. Somehow things I didn't want to think about came rushing through my mind while I was talking. 

I slowly dissaccoited with the present and became gloomy I had unnecessary thoughts that brought me sadness. I asked my friend to describe me. One of those included that I had overthings and always tried to be perfect which i think is very true. 

Classes ended early, having the same dissaccoited expression I reached my hostel.

It was the day before christmas friend. I bought a gift for my senior. It was an earing and two chocolates within the budget they told us.. I had a bath and thought of resting for awhile on my phone outside... it was then dinner time we had rice and chicken.  After dinner I was scrolling and watching series until 10 then i went to sleep